Wednesday, April 07, 2010

In the thick of it.

The last time I wrote was February 21? Oops. Yeah, I knew from the get-go I wasn't going to be good at this blogging thing.

Good thing I've been doing a much better job with the whole Weight Watchers thing, eh?

This is my twelfth week with the program. As of last Thursday, I'd lost 37.4 pounds. The website has finally stopped telling me I'm losing too quickly because, at the last two weigh-ins, I lost a combined total of one pound. Once it was -.4 and another it was -.6. I was okay with both of those numbers because I was certain I would have a gain each time. And I'm not going to lie, I don't expect much progress this week either.

I don't want to be negative. Really. I'm just trying to be realistic. Over the past few weeks (or the whole month, really), I've struggled to stick with the plan on weekends. I have gone a whole day without tracking my points. In a way, I feel like that's somewhat healthy, that I can function without plugging in numbers. The truth, though, is that I don't plug in the numbers because I know it's going to be ugly. As if not recording it means it never happened. Yeah, right.

If I want to be realistic, I have to take the bad with the good. Ignoring the bad won't make it go away. That should be my goal this week. Track what I eat, no matter what it is. Face the facts.

All this means that I'm in the thick of it now. I think the easy, puppy-love part of this is over. I now know what it's like to feel like I've messed up completely. But I also know what it's like to feel like I'm finally getting somewhere.

2 comments:

Jacqueline said...

That is fantastic, Cass. I've thought about joining WW. Trying to do it on my own just isn't working.

washedup said...

Thanks, Jackie. Not surprisingly, I recommend Weight Watchers. At least it works for me. I definitely need the accountability and structure at this point in the journey. There are great online tools and communitiies, even if you don't go to the meetings. I've founds lots of support from fellow WWers on Twitter. Whatever you choose to do, good luck! Even though we all know it takes more that luck. =)