Thursday, October 28, 2004

willing

in my ears
try
artist: bebo norman
song: disappear


This crying thing is really becoming a regular event. This time, I was talking to Mom when I broke down. Three days in a row, here I am crying. And it's hard to explain why I am crying because I'm not sure. I do know what I'm crying about, but not why. Probably doesn't make sense, eh?

I'm trying to decide if I want to try to go to Thailand this summer. There are few things I've ever felt such a strong desire to do. But it is more than desire. I feel compelled. I think. It is a huge decision. Part of me is excited at the thought, and the other part is terrified. By leaving this country, or just this town, for two months during the summer, my future will definitely be affected. I could be here taking classes and all that. But I need something to affect me, you know. But I don't want that to be my entire motivation. Anyway, even if I decide I'm going to try to go, I may not be able to. I'll have to go to an interview in Bowling Green in a few weeks. This is huge. I'm not worrying about what it will cost me, financially and otherwise. That's not how I'm weighing this. I want to know if Thailand is where I belong this summer. Because I'm willing to go.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Cassidy-

I just want to tell you i come by your site EVERYDAY for your pictures! I swear you have an AMAZING talent! I would love you to take pictures for me, and most of your nature pics I use for my phones screensaver! I cant believe you dont want to be a photographer...but honestly, your pictures are gorgeous!

-jaynay's sister!

Anonymous said...

I agree with jaynay's sister. I thank you so much for allowing us to use them for our CD. I have to say that I am very envous of you. I haven't lived anywhere away from my parents ever. And you have the opportunity to go to Thailand. If it were up to me, I'd want you to go and experience what the world has to offer. You have so many God given talents, Cass, and anyone would be envous of you, to say the least. Use the things that God gave you. Get the most out of your time on Earth. If anyone deserves it, it's you, Cass. You are always my open ear, and I appreciate it more than I could ever show and/or tell you.

hollynicole said...

Don't have long speeches like the other two, just this: I love you, b/f/f/, and I believe in you.